Daily Entry: September 8th, 2017

Fri Sep 08 17:38:19 UTC 2017

Woke up and went back to sleep today. Had leftovers for breakfast instead of cooking so I could get to work at a reasonable hour again (been at work now for about 40 minutes).

Sat Sep 9 03:29:47 UTC 2017

Back home. Good day of work. I have tackled the tickler and inbox.

Sat Sep 9 05:37:43 UTC 2017

Forgot to medititate at the designated time, so I'm gonna do it now.

Sat Sep 9 05:52:41 UTC 2017

Glad I did that.

Every single time I've meditated I've noticed a slight pressure in my head. Not quite a headache but in that direction of feeling. Is it really always there? Maybe something to mention in my doctor's appointment at the end of the month.

Sat Sep 9 07:20:56 UTC 2017

Made a YouTube comment about Bernie Sanders that I'll put here:

""" I understand this is not a significant point of your video, but I keep seeing the sentiment in various content from you, Hbomberguy, and various others whom I've found through Hbomberguy. I'm not a huge fan of a rich, white, old, straight, cis-gendered male becoming the face of "the desire for a more left-leaning platform from the Democrats". I'm incredibly suspect of any non-representative ally of a cause taking leadership in that cause. I think Malcolm X put it best when talking of Herbert Hill:

"Herbert Hill is the labor secretary of the NAACP. If he was interested in black people, he would prepare a black man with the type of knowledge and understanding of the labor troubles involving black people that would enable a black man to sit in the same position as Secretary of Labor or Labor Secretary in the NAACP. I'm suspicious of whites who join Negroes and always have to be in the lead. Who always have to be the head. Who always have to be the top. In Negro organizations. Those whites who really have the interests of blacks at heart, let them give some advice to Negroes and stand on the sidelines. But don't join the organization and get at the head of it, and pose as a friend of Negroes."


Now, full transparency, I'm white. Also, as far as everyone can tell, I'm a straight, cis-gendered male (I'm mostly ace and/or bi but in a monogamous marriage to a woman and I don't care about gender at all). I'm also privileged enough to have a high-income job (hopefully the programming market isn't a bubble that's about to pop) and don't spend much money relative to that income so I'm hoping to gain wealth.

I would like to be a proper ally. I plan on becoming politically active and hope that once I hit my savings goal to work on various projects that properly solidify my status as an ally. I would like to use my privilege to spread it to others (when it's a privilege everyone should have) or exterminate it. But I will not go for leadership roles. That's not my place as an ally. It is antithetical to being an ally. My job is to listen, understand as best I can, and aide the people who have the lived experience solve the problems that affect them way more than me. Their understanding is second-nature, and my understanding is second-hand and constantly clouded by a real lack of experience.

Now, I will admit that Bernie Sanders actually has experience on the topic of class. He was not always rich. But he's rich now and it seems like he should defer leadership of the cause to the next generation who are currently living the reality he was once a part of.

I like what Bernie Sanders says, and he seems like a good person, but he doesn't seem like a good fit for leadership of the cause he supports. I apologize if I've missed something incredibly important that invalidates this perspective. If you end up reading this comment, I promise to read whatever it is you send my way. I've only watched a few of your videos, but you (and Hbomberguy) really take proper time to research what you're talking about, and it's something I strive to do but am still far from perfect at. """

It was a video by a YouTuber named Shuan, who makes some good deep dives into the poorly constructed philosophy of white nationalists (aka the alt-right).

Video here.

Sat Sep 9 07:23:33 UTC 2017

Bed time.