Blogging While Tired and Distracted

01/10/15

The past week or so marks the return to work after a long, two-week, glorious vacation. I may or may not be sick, too, so all the free time and energy I had over vacation has suddenly disappeared.

It used to be that I would make time in the morning, before work, to do extracurricular work. In many ways, that would be ideal, because I have the most energy and it starts the day off right, and if I don't work that day, I still have the habit of doing something right in the morning, which is the recipe for a productive day.

For a variety of reasons, though, mornings don't work for me right now, so I'm trying to be productive after work. I was getting into the groove of it before vacation, but I've found I have to relearn those habits after vacation. I've found I have even regressed a bit with work habits.

This is the longest vacation I've had in a long time, and regression is something I'm no stranger to, so I really should have been more prepared for it and had a plan for it, I think. Even so, I'm recovering pretty quickly at work, and hopefully extracurricular work isn't far behind.

Anyways, the only daily thing I've managed the past week has been blogging, and that has been while extremely tired and also watching TV at the same time. Today, not that tired, but there is a TV in front of me, playing something I'm slightly paying attention to.

I don't know if I'm okay rebuilding this habit of continual distraction going on in the background. On one hand, I've had great success doing this throughout a great chunk of my life, but on the other hand, I have experienced incredible value learning to set aside time and focus on only one thing in a distraction-free environment.

But the world is a chaotic, non-distraction-free place. Rebuilding a habit of getting work done in a variety of settings and distraction-levels seems really valuable, too. It also helps lend to an intrinsic understanding that I can do work in any setting, and with my AgileGame training, any arbitrary amount of time.

The quality of my posts this past week are really below my already low standard, though, I think. But I'm glad I still wrote them. I think nothing is a far lesser standard for where I am in writing. Having not practiced Javascript, or played AgileGame outside of work, or studied Japanese, or not done any of the other things I haven't made time for this past week is a bigger sin.

I'm glad I've written those posts. I'm glad to have done something I'm unsatisfied with as opposed to a nothing I can ignore. I want to do that with a greater variety of things than just blog posts, and I think I need to properly ingrain in myself that nothing is the worst kind of failure for anything I actually want to achieve or work towards.

And as far as an outside observer is concerned, just thinking about it is the same as nothing.