Timeblock
| Time (PST) | Plan | Reality |
|---|---|---|
| 0000 | SLEEP | |
| 0030 | SLEEP | |
| 0100 | SLEEP | |
| 0130 | SLEEP | |
| 0200 | SLEEP | |
| 0230 | SLEEP | |
| 0300 | SLEEP | |
| 0330 | SLEEP | |
| 0400 | SLEEP | |
| 0430 | SLEEP | |
| 0500 | SLEEP | |
| 0530 | SLEEP | |
| 0600 | SLEEP | |
| 0630 | Meditation | |
| 0700 | Cooking/Eating breakfast | |
| 0730 | Reading: The Mind Illuminated | |
| 0800 | Morning routine | |
| 0830 | Planning | |
| 0900 | Stretching | |
| 0930 | Stretching | |
| 1000 | Maintenance: Notion Tasks | |
| 1030 | Buffer | Maintenance: Notion Tasks |
| 1100 | Work | Lunch |
| 1130 | Work | TV: YouTube Overwatch |
| 1200 | Lunch | Maintenance: Notion Tasks |
| 1230 | NAP | |
| 1300 | Buffer | Work: Maintenance |
| 1330 | Work: OpsLead Task | |
| 1400 | Work: OpsLead Task | |
| 1430 | Work: OpsLead Task | |
| 1500 | Work: OpsLead Task | |
| 1530 | Buffer | Work: OpsLead Task |
| 1600 | Music with wife | Meeting: Mixpanel Meditation |
| 1630 | Meeting: Mixpanel Meditation | Work: OpsLead Task |
| 1700 | Cooking block | Work: OpsLead Task |
| 1730 | Cooking block | Work: OpsLead Task |
| 1800 | Side-projects | TV: YouTube MTG Arena |
| 1830 | Side-projects | TV: YouTube MTG Arena |
| 1900 | Hanging out | TV: YouTube Overwatch |
| 1930 | Hanging out | TV: YouTube Overwatch |
| 2000 | Hanging out | Reading: The Mind Illuminated |
| 2030 | Winding down | Reading: The Wretched of the Earth |
| 2100 | SLEEP | |
| 2130 | SLEEP | |
| 2200 | SLEEP | |
| 2230 | SLEEP | |
| 2300 | SLEEP | |
| 2330 | SLEEP |
Meditation
This morning's meditation was not noticeably better than yesterday's, but it was still quite solid. It also still had very noticeable positive effects following. Like, it feels like a consistent dose of caffeine or my ADHD medication. And further, it stacks with the caffeine and ADHD medication I take shortly after my meditation session.
I'm still working with stage 3's intention: regularly invoke introspective attention (not awareness, but actual attention) to scan the mind's state for distractions. I still feel like I don't forget the breath, though distractions still take center stage. However, I believe the next stage is where I address that. I'll stay in stage 3 intention for a bit before moving on.
Anki only gives me 3 new cards to a deck per day to start memorizing, and so even though I added intention and mastery of each stage to Anki, I haven't gotten to them yet, and so I haven't yet memorized what stage 3 mastery looks like. I think it's fine to wait until I hit the concept in Anki before deciding whether or not to move on. I believe that meditation, if worth doing, will be a lifelong pursuit. No need to rush things.
Something I've been meaning to discuss for a while is the type of distractions I often encounter. Because of labeling (naming the distractions you encounter), I have short terms for them. Things that often come up are:
- fantasy
- meta
- itch
- cat
- pain
- numb
- timer
Now, I label it "fantasy", but it often comes in looking like "planning". These "fantasies" are very much things I could do, but I very rarely do. This has long been a frustration of mine. At one point I did realize that the process of talking about them made me less likely to do them. But I think, also, that the process of thinking about them makes me less likely to do them. I get the reward of doing it in my mind, and that satiates me and zaps the motivation to do it.
I think.
In any case, having noticed it in meditation, I catch myself doing it all the time. And a habit is forming of just letting the fantasy go, and not dwelling in it. This may be the new source of my energy?
Oh, yeah, I haven't talked about my increase of energy yet, either. I'm spending too much time thinking about this today, though.
In any case, I notice that I am able to choose to do things that I'd often fantasize about before. Like more thinking aloud here in this log. And I'm noting certain ideas that spark fantasies in my Notion, and then slowly building them out when the same fantasie sparks in my brain. Perhaps this will lead to the slow building of side-projects (both coding and non-coding)?
Time will tell.