Daily Entry: January 15th, 2019

Today's log.

Listening to Podcasts Cortex Again

So, I'm noting a cycle here....

I wanted to say "I'm listening to Cortex while I'm writhing this" but it is, in fact, too distracting to do so. So let's turn it off.

....

Okay. So. Last July, I started noting my listening to Cortex during pomodoros. I didn't know how I felt about that. Was it hurting the productivity of a pomodoro?

Eventually, I cut listening to anything whilst working. This was, in fact, a boon to my productivity.

But looking back on the decisions I made, it wasn't sustainable. Which is to say, "I didn't maintain high productivity in a distraction-free environment."

It is now that I must ask, "Why not?"

So, then, what's going on? I think I need to consume certain kind of ideas, and the way my environment is set up leads me to only consume such ideas during knowledge work of some kind.

What I need to do, then, I think, is to properly prioritize the processing of such data in my short-term scheduling.

....

Argh, my thinking is so scattered and unstructured here it is a bit frustrating. If this were a proper blog I'd have to edit this post constantly.

Prioritizing My Thoughts

Okay, there's a lot of stuff swirling in my brain. I'll let it settle and maybe come back and write more later.

Daily Entry: January 8th, 2019

Today's log.

Yesterday Not So Great

The wife has an alarm that goes off every morning at 0900. I decided to try out an alarm again and set my alarm for 0600. It's been like this for a week or so now.

Two nights ago, I really wanted to wake up and stay up at 0600, no matter what. This materialized into a dream wherein if I didn't wake up at that time and stay up, the world would end. Yesterday, I woke up in a panic and unplugged and replugged my sunrise alarm clock, thinking that this would allow me to go back to sleep without thew world ending.

Then, 3 hours later, my wife's alarm went off. I jumped to my feet with the resolve to stay awake.

Now, neither the 0600 or 0900 alarm woke me up. I was up before them in anticipation. This is often the case when I first start using an alarm. Usually, however, Iturn off the alarm and go back to sleep. Eventually, this is a trained response and I don't even wake up when doing it.

However, every once in a while, I program a response to an alarm that results in me actually waking up. It seems this dream of the world ending programed a "jump out of bed" response, which is pretty effective at waking me up.

Despite a reasonable wake-up time of 0900 (and reasonable sleep amount), I wasn't feeling particularly well all of yesterday. I ended up accomplishing little at work and watched TV the rest of the day at home.

Feelin' Good Today

With the "success" yesterday of waking up at 0900, I decided to switch my alarm from 0600 to 0830. Again, I woke up before my alarm. Around 0800 with attempts to fall back asleep. At 0830 my alarm went off and I jumped out of bed. And I'm feeling pretty great today! Further, I find myself capable of choosing to do productive things. My tickler is caught up, and I stretched when I got to work.

I think I'll move my wake-up time 15 minutes backwards each day until I wake up at 0600. Then, hopefully, I can reignite my climbing habit.

In any case, now it's time to focus on work.

Daily Entry: January 7th, 2019

Today's log.

Quiting IGDA

I have quit IGDA stuff. Was planning on "getting it to a good place", but software is never finished, only abandoned. I have told the other volunteers that I quit, and if they need me, they can ask me for help. Else, I'm not going to think about it. It's time for me to focus on me. Helping others will come later. That's the more efficient path.

Daily Entry: January 4th, 2019

Today's log.

Habits to Rebuild

Okay, so, I've reset a lot of my daily items. Basically, the only thing I'm making sure to do is the timeblock.

Another thing I need to make sure to do is my tickler. Also, daily YNAB would be ideal.

Extremely Distractable

Something is weighing heavily on my mind, but I can not discuss it here. Or anywhere, I think. There is a pit of dread and my escape thus far has been YouTube, because this diary is not a place I can go, I feel. So, I am trying a round-about means of using the diary.

Daily Entry: January 3rd, 2019

Today's log.

Vacation Over, Now What?

The winter break has ended. What's the plan? It is also a new year, but that doesn't really matter. In fact, I read an interesting argument that the best time to make a long term commitment is the beginning of spring, where energy levels are at their highest. This jives with my experience.

I believe my main goal is this: replace all instances of meandering Twitter or YouTube with diary time. Thoughts I may want to review will be here, and thoughts for pure logging purposes will be in the log.

Quitting Twitter should be doable, and keeping YouTube within certain time constraints should also be doable. As an example, I have been reddit-free for almost 8 months now. Reddit was really hard for me to quit. It took many tries, but eventually I stopped and never went back. I can do the same for Twitter.

Developing a habit of, perhaps even an addiction to, a dialog with myself will be far more powerful than any social media habit. These dialogs with myself help me strategize my personal growth. I want to get back into personal projects this year, and the first things I need to do is overcome the emotional barriers to doing so. Then there will be planning I need to do. Thinking. And I can do that thinking here.

Ten Minutes of Diary Time

I gave myself extra buffer for Veggie Grill lunch. Upon returning, I made myself a cup of decaf coffee and now, instead of diving into work early or lurking Twitter, or watching a YouTube video, I'm going to write in this diary.

Doing this has immediately launched a bunch of thoughts that I wouldn't have necessarily had otherwise. There include:

"I need to set up my pomodoro environment before it's time to work."

"The wife needs an update on what my plans are vis-a-vis when I'm coming home from work."

"I need to decide what I'm going to work on for the next work block."

"I need to catch up on various shallow work like email and slack."

"Am I going to listen to Cortex while I work? Yes, but with the option of turning it off if I find it too distracting."

And so on and so forth.

This is good. This is a habit worth building for sure.

Five Minutes of Diary Time

I feel like eating a sugary protein bar, but I'm not actually hungry. Also, I want to run home in an hour and a half. Based on past experience, I will not be happy if I eat a protein bar.

Thinking the best thing to do is to switch back to standing desk.

Daily Entry: December 31st, 2018

Today's log.

The Return

So, I was planning on returning to this diary a lot sooner. I've lost a lot of days. What brought me back today was the wife and I wondering what we were doing last New Year's Eve and my entry from last year gave me a good overview.

I'm thinking I'll revise my daily checklist to a miminmal amount of things:

  • Sleep questions
  • Weight
  • Calorie Plan
  • Fill timeblock
  • Calendar
  • Tickler
    • Physical
    • Wunderlist
  • Inbox
    • Physical
    • Wunderlist
    • Email
  • YNAB

Some of these things need to be better captured outside of the normal logging. So, in fact... let's not do those things. I can weigh myself and note my sleeping, but unless stored properly, I don't care to write it down.

  • Sleep questions
  • Weight
  • Calorie Plan

Removed from checklist.

I don't think this should take up a whole pomodoro anymore.