This time I can't remember if I had remembered my dream upon waking up. Like, feels like maybe? Not going to tag this post with "dream" though.

Meditation (Day 45)

Took my time sitting down to meditate this morning. Ended up chatting with friends and family online for a bit beforehand. The meditation went solid though. I stuck with my plan to stay in first position for 30 minutes before switching. Tomorrow I'll increase that to 31 minutes. Not feeling any damage in legs from it, and circulation came back real fast on moving, so it's likely just a pinched nerve, and not an actual loss of circulation, and the solution to that is to just sit through it and it'll slowly get better day-to-day. Still going to increase the timing slowly, because there's no real rush.

There was a bit of mind-wandering and forgetting, but overall stage 3 was solid today. Regularly invoked introspective attention and looked at my mind. Lots of songs playing in my head today, which is ironic, because for the first week of meditation I expected this to be a problem but it wasn't at all. Songs are easier to catch and typically stay in the background, though.

Ended up doing two body scans today. The second one may have been tried with too many distractions going on, but both felt like they went well. My main worry is that I might use the scan as an attempt to fight boredom or keep myself too busy to be distracted. But I don't think I'm falling into that trap. Got a lot of solid chunks of time with vivid and intense perception of the breath. Can really feel it at my nose on inhale. Got a nice chill to it. Once that feeling sets in, my breath will often be the sensation that lets me know my directed attention has wandered, which is neat.

I'm going to pretty confidently keep stage 3 unmarked as "mastered" in my weekly review today. Again, though, next week could be different, and I feel pretty comfortable dipping my toes into stage 5 training (increasing mindfulness via full-body scans).

Extracurricular Stuffs

Sunday is my day, so I should be able to make some time for something today. What that something is, I'm not sure yet. Lots of stuff to consider.