Meditation (Day 67)

Another prime number day, woo!

Removing body-scanning from my daily meditations has been good for my stage 4 (make introspective awareness continuous) development, I think. A part of my meditation prep is to decide before I sit down whether or not to do a body-scan.

I think maybe I'll add them back in soon, but also maybe I'll play with a similar concept, but focus on my posture, which I still am struggling with for two reasons. 1) I think it actually needs fixing (I'm still finding a healthy posture via some amount of trial and error), and 2) I'm too quick to assume that 1 is true in a given moment. So what I'm working on is really making adjustment of posture purposeful, and I've found that in one case what happened was very similar to the start of a body-scan.

So, I'm working on stopping my automatic adjustments, trying to treat the impulse just like I would an itch, but following up with it because unlike an itch the impulse doesn't always go away, and also can grow in intensity. So, as the book recommends, I'll switch to focusing on the aching part of my body and make it the meditation object, and only after I notice a strong intensity of attention will I adjust my position and then return to the breath.

This should help me get to the next stage of a stable posture. Though I have made great gains here, I readjust way less often, and I keep my leg position for the entire 45 minutes now. I'm really happy with my progress, is what I'm saying, even though I reflect quite a bit on what I want to work on.

Meditation continues to be amazing, and I'm really happy that I maintained it through my week staycation.

Extracurricular Stuff

Got a lot of work stuff to catch up on today, and various weekend chores that I put off to today to enjoy the last couple days of staycation. I'll still have call with friend, but otherwise will focus on maintenance stuff (and catching up at work).