Yesterday and today's writing is collected, but not all digitized. I'll get it properly collected into place tomorrow.

Dream

Intention (2215 the night before)

Same time to bed as last night. Busy day, and then the Internet died.

So, want to reinforce reality checks. I think I might also incubate food dream. Though Daysha, being an old pet, is also a reality check. Had more food dreams lately, though.

The Other Reality Wants our Bodies

I am at a house. It is full of people. There are rows of tables. A little boy is being annoying. I finally take issue and start chasing him. He's a slippery one, small enough to slip under the tables in an agile way, but with the help of another kid, I catch him.

Now, it is time for us to leave. I am myself for sure this moment, with various members of my family (my brother, his wife, my mother, and more). One of us pulls out a wand. "The portal won't be open for long so get in quick."

"Let me put on my shoes first," I say, scrambling to put on my shoes, but the portal is already open, and I run through holding my shoes in my hands.

My mother and someone else missed the portal. Something happens....

I am my brother now. On the other side of the portal is a slightly off alternate reality. And alternate versions of ourselves are after us. I am running from my doppelganger. I go to my blue truck, but opening the front door reveals a metal box interior. No discernible means of driving.

The doppelganger wants to trade body parts. Forcibly. We're in a body of water now. Discrete chunks are coming off him and me painlessly.

"The most important piece," as he takes my groin area. A fight ensues. I seem to have some sort of electrified voltmeter. I electrify the doppelganger, confident I'll get my body parts back.

That's all I remember.

Game Grumps Play New Game Plus

Playing emperor Palpatine. Have to die to a boss and start over as current character to be eaten later to same boss, but pass harmlessly thru.

Lots of Danny laughter. Crazy hard lava platforming section with various instant death and time powers? Keep dying here to Arin rage.

That's all I remember.

Wake-Back-to-Sleep (logged at 0430 this morning)

Awake from 0400 to 0430. Recorded 2 dreams. Back to sleep now. Internet still down. Got to call in the morning.

Roller Coaster Seating in Plane

I am on a plane. The seats of the plane move around. Almost like those kid-sized roller coasters. The seats take us to a chef's kitchen, where we see a chef cook. The seats take us back to the plane. It's kinda more like a movie set of plane seats than an actual plane.

That's all I remember.

Pre-nap (1212)

Pressed for time. Same setup as yesterday. Nap-time!o

Post-nap (1228)

Thought about a coding problem I've been doing with cousin for the last few days. Thought about my process and how I could do the same thing but faster.

Meditation (Day 113)

Prime number, woo!

Intentions for the day:

• Stay in posture part of prep until you're prepared to set the intention to stay still
• Stage 4 intention (vigilance on keeping introspective awareness continuous)
• Fall back to stage 3 if necessary
• Label the distractions, do it over and over so that it becomes automatic
• Learn the various different ways I guide myself back to the breath
  • E.g. away from tempting distractions, away from posture distractions, away from pain
• Note where the breath was when you label a distraction (attention, awareness, or forgotten)
• Before adjusting posture, mirror-check
• Mirror-check only when agitated due to worry and after counting to 8 in breaths
• During planned attention away from breath, keep breath in awareness

Post-Meditation

This is the latest I've done meditation (finished around 2115). Really shouldn't let it happen again, but it was interesting. Dullness didn't seem to be any more likely.

My right leg really fell asleep and really was in pain, though. Should maybe check online again for half-lotus setup that won't stop circulation to legs.

Today was the longest 45 minutes of meditation yet. Possibly the longest 45 minutes of my life. Again, I consider this a victory. The timer distraction was way stronger and persistent than ever, probably because all the other times it came close I gave in way sooner. Every time I let it come, let it be, and let it go felt great. Until it didn't on the last one. The last one coming with my leg really, really complaining.

Each time that it came, though, I asked if I wanted to count to 8 first. And most of the time that was the end of it. Then one time I started the count to 8, but knew by the end I didn't want to look at the timer. Then, finally, on the second count to 8, I looked at my timer.

5 minutes remaining.

Now, I almost quit here, but instead I laid down and finished the session. This is where the majority of my gross distractions came. I had a couple whilst sitting, but the timer that broke my posture led to a large flow of gross distractions. I think without that, it'd have been second-best (to yesterday).

I'm pretty freaking happy with the result. Feel like it shows yesterday wasn't a fluke even though gross distractions did happen this time.

Also, I'd like to learn the lesson of not meditating so late in day. Please and thank you, future me.