Timeblock
| Time (PST) | Plan | Reality |
|---|---|---|
| 0000 | SLEEP | |
| 0030 | SLEEP | |
| 0100 | SLEEP | |
| 0130 | SLEEP | |
| 0200 | SLEEP | |
| 0230 | SLEEP | |
| 0300 | SLEEP | |
| 0330 | SLEEP | |
| 0400 | SLEEP | |
| 0430 | SLEEP | |
| 0500 | SLEEP | |
| 0530 | SLEEP | |
| 0600 | Buffer | SLEEP |
| 0630 | Morning routine block | Meditation |
| 0700 | Reading: Book | Morning routine |
| 0730 | Planning | Eating |
| 0800 | Stretching | Reading: The Mind Illuminated |
| 0830 | Stretching | Planning |
| 0900 | Stretching | |
| 0930 | Stretching | |
| 1000 | Meeting: Mixpanel Meditation | |
| 1030 | Maintenance | |
| 1100 | Grocery shopping | Lunch |
| 1130 | Grocery shopping | TV: YouTube Overwatch |
| 1200 | Grocery shopping | Grocery shopping |
| 1230 | Buffer | Grocery shopping |
| 1300 | Lunch | Grocery shopping |
| 1330 | NAP | Shower/maintenance |
| 1400 | Meeting: Core Opslead Handoff | |
| 1430 | Work: OpsLead | Meeting: Admin Bug Discussion |
| 1500 | Work: OpsLead | Work: Maintenance |
| 1530 | Buffer | Work: OpsLead |
| 1600 | Music with wife | |
| 1630 | Buffer | Work: OpsLead |
| 1700 | Cooking block | Work: OpsLead |
| 1730 | Cooking block | Work: OpsLead |
| 1800 | Side-projects | Music with wife |
| 1830 | Side-projects | TV: Central Park |
| 1900 | Hanging out | TV: YouTube MTG Arena |
| 1930 | Hanging out | TV: John Oliver |
| 2000 | Hanging out | TV: John Oliver |
| 2030 | Winding down | TV: Legend of Korra |
| 2100 | SLEEP | |
| 2130 | SLEEP | |
| 2200 | SLEEP | |
| 2230 | SLEEP | |
| 2300 | SLEEP | |
| 2330 | SLEEP |
Thinking
Meditation this morning went really well. I believe I did not forget the breath this time, though it was not always the primary object of my attention. Did a lot of labeling of distractions, which was neat, and I started to apply that process to reading. Even right now, though I'm not verbalizing the distraction, it seems I take a deep breath once I feel one coming? It's a bit subconscious in this state. I guess the desire to pace may be coming? I'm standing still, I notice.
I'll be entering opslead at 1430 today. This means that practicing flexibility will be very important. Backup meditation will almost certainly be necessary. Also, I'm going to get some grocery shopping in before my opslead rotation starts.
Dream
I remembered my dream a bit during meditation. I did not dig in, as it was not the meditation object, but perhaps that helped it settle even better? I was visiting my friend and his parents. This friend no longer lives with his parents, but in the dream, he did, and in the dream, they lived in a house I have never been to.
There are vague memories of doing things, but at some point a child entered the group. At first, I mistook this child as a new brother of my friend, but it ended up being my friend's nephew. My friend does not have a nephew, but he did recently become an uncle. This child was not a baby, however, and a variety of shenanigans I do not remember ensued.
There was a long walk in the cold suburbs at one point in this dream.
That is all I can remember.
Still pretty good, though. Evidence that medtation will help with this? Or coincidence?
Think about Babuska, grandparents, people who're gone
This is a physical tickler item. I "attempt" to do this task once every three months, but really I continuously throw it to the future. I'm not sure if emotions are tangled up with this item. I mean, I think there are, but I don't explicitly feel them when I see or read the card. It seems more to manifest as a resistance to executing the task.
This card, as I've mentioned before, used to be my weekly reminder to call my babuska (my grandmother). When she died, I crossed-out the "call" and added "think about" and appended "grandparents, people who're gone".
I definitely don't want to force it, though. I want these sorts of reflections to come, and even now, when I feel like I'm in the right head space, I do not have anyone come to mind to discuss. There are just some people I list in my head.
People I love, mind you, but I don't have further reflections.
Perhaps I'll just list them here, as I would refer to them:
- grandpa
- grandma
- babuska
- daduska
- uncle Tom
Perhaps "people who're gone" is not exclusive to people who are dead. There are many people I can name that I will likely never see again:
- Prasad
- Sandy
- Noah
- Kevin
Hmmmm.... Perhaps it is valuable to simply tuck these people into my awareness and let them mingle with the other processes of my subconscious.