New tag today: extracurricular. This is better than "side-projects", which isn't something I'm doing, as-of-late. If I were to do side-projects, it'd fall in the time bucket where I fit extracurricular stuff.

Meditation (Day 43)

Another prime number, woo. So spoiled. Next one is 47, I think?

Today was very hard. Definitely forgot the breath, though it's strange because the breath is likely to remind me that my mind has wandered. Which is neat. Perhaps a sign that it has stayed in awareness? In any case, lots of fighting, and a fair bit of physically fidgeting. A stark contrast to a couple days ago where I basically sat completely still the entire session.

To be fair, I am experimenting with a variety of things, including but not limited to:

• how I invoke introspective attention regularly
• how I rest my neck on my shoulders
• how I rest my shoulders
• how I keep my back straight
• how I position my legs

Further, my success with running harder has made my legs complain a lot more during meditation, and I'm not sure how seriously I should take it. Don't want to damage my knees or anything.

I don't think I have anything to worry about, though, I haven't felt any worrying pain outside the session. The pain melts right off during my 5 minutes of walking post-sit.

I might just see what happens if I maintain the pose for the duration of the sit. Let my leg fall asleep and everything. Though, at the same time, I am noticing my flexibility improve at a significant rate... maybe just wait until that plateaus and allow myself to reposition at specific intervals. Maybe every 10 minutes for now (instead of 22.5 minutes that I have allowed recently).

Though I just looked it up and maybe it's just fine? I'll try to sit still the whole time tomorrow.

See? Lots of things to play with. Though it's all improving, and the meditation is worth it, even when it's hard. I don't feel like I've lost practice even though I didn't do as well today as most of the week.

Extracurricular Stuffs

Looked over what I put together yesterday. Made some minor edits, but I think I'll need some other eyeballs on it. Which is perfect because there's a meeting in like 14 minutes.