Daily Entry: June 22nd, 2020

Timeblock

Time (PST) Plan Reality
0000 SLEEP
0030 SLEEP
0100 SLEEP
0130 SLEEP
0200 SLEEP
0230 SLEEP
0300 SLEEP
0330 SLEEP
0400 SLEEP
0430 SLEEP
0500 SLEEP
0530 SLEEP
0600 SLEEP
0630 Meditation
0700 Cooking/eating breakfast
0730 Reading: The Doors of Perception
0800 Car rental adventures
0830 Car rental adventures
0900 Car rental adventures
0930 Car rental adventures
1000 Car rental adventures
1030 Car rental adventures
1100 Doctor's appointment with wife
1130 Doctor's appointment with wife
1200 Doctor's appointment with wife
1230 Car rental adventures
1300 Car rental adventures
1330 Car rental adventures
1400 Car rental adventures
1430 Car rental adventures
1500 Spaced-repetition
1530 Maintenance: Notion Tasks
1600 Stretching
1630 Stretching
1700 Cooking: Field Roast patties and curly fries
1730 TV: YouTube Overwatch
1800 TV: Legend of Korra Talking with family
1830 TV: Legend of Korra Talking with family
1900 TV: Legend of Korra
1930 Hanging out TV: Legend of Korra
2000 Hanging out TV: Legend of Korra
2030 Winding down
2100 SLEEP
2130 SLEEP
2200 SLEEP
2230 SLEEP
2300 SLEEP
2330 SLEEP

Meditation (Day 18)

Another bit of resistance this morning! "Ugh, if I'm just going to sit still for 30 minutes, why not lay in bed some more?" I resisted this urge, and am again very glad that I did. Normally by now I'd be super exhausted, what with hours of errands, and driving about the town. But instead there's this slight weight.

Specifically, it's that headache that I think was always there before and I only noticed when it was gone. Just a slight feeling of tightness or pressure around the head. It's also something I can recover from now, I've found. Though the later in the day, the less I can recover. Well, I can still kind of recover, but I can't return back to doing any real kind of work, I don't think.

I have resituated myself during meditation. I used to sit and stare towards my desk. This was fine, as there was this lovely patch of blue wall that my vision centered on. But I found that my posture was poor for this (head tilted too far up). Fixing this led to looking at some black drawers. Even though they're not my attention, they're in my awareness, which I'm supposed to maintain.

To fix this, I simply turned around to face a mirror. This lets me check my pose early on, and then I basically have a cool view of the whole room. The main problem is seeing myself can be a distraction, but I think I can get used to it. Yesterday morning, it was a bit difficult, but this morning I didn't have much of an issue.

I believe one of the symptoms of progressive subtle dullness that I can easily notice is my vision getting wonky. This morning, for instance, the color drained from my vision, and my hands (the point that I stare at) melted into my bright-white shirt. This happened several times. A simple blink would return my vision to normal.

At some point I'll follow this strange sensation and see how far it goes, but it'll have to be a special meditation session, not the morning one,