Purposefully went to sleep without setting an intention (sick day). Feeling really good today though, so I might give it another go.
I did wake up around this time and consider it but went back to sleep.
Decided against a wake log this morning. But did remember a couple of dreams that didn't disappear completely by the time I went to write them down (0900 or so).
I am at my friend's house. Well, I still consider it my friend's house, but he doesn't live there. Though his parents are my friends, too, so I guess it's still my friend's house. Anyways, I'm talking with my friend's parents about my progress towards FIRE.
"I am at $300K about, but saved $100K of that within the last year," I tell him.
We talk about their son (my friend). There's a story about a router that they just couldn't ever remember the password to.
That's all I remember.
I am at a neighbor's house. There's an adorable cat. The neighbor notices me admiring their cat. "We're going to be gone for a bit, you mind pet-sitting?" he asks. I agree.
Now I'm in his garage, he's going through his expectations. At some point he seems to say he'll be gone the entire summer. "You'll be gone the whole summer?"
"No, no. Just a day or so," he understands why I misunderstood.
They're gone, and I'm outside messing with a window. The cat keeps slipping through it. The first time it made sense, kinda, but the last time the window is sealed shut, I look away, and I look back and the cat is outside again.
That's all I remember.
Feeling good today. Want to restart serious dreamin efforts. Naps may get a serious pre-nap soon. Thinking on deciding on where to direct thoughts and do quick study on what I want available in brain, then do nap, then do post-mortem. Which would boil down to "what else did I need that blocked dream progress?"
Basically, naps will be hypnagogic analytic meditations.
Today being a work day, I'll think on two work tasks.
Lay down. Recite intent. Adding incubation to end of intent (for nap it was work tasks). Mind wanders for a bit. Recite intent. Focus on breath. Count to 8. Work task. Next work task. Bigger picture. Project idea. Work task. Planning. Work task. Planning. Wake up. Reality check. Journal.
There's 4 prime numbers between 100 and 110. Two pair primes. What a fun set of 10 digits.
Intentions for the day:
- Stage 4 intention (vigilance on keeping introspective awareness continuous)
- Fall back to stage 3 if necessary
- Label the distractions, do it over and over so that it becomes automatic
- Before adjusting posture, count 8 breaths
- Learn the various different ways I guide myself back to the breath
- E.g. away from tempting distractions, away from posture distractions, away from pain
- Note where the breath was when you label a distraction (attention, awareness, or forgotten)
- Body-scan in the beginning and latter half of meditation
- Mirror-check in the beginning and latter half of meditation
- During planned attention away from breath, keep breath in awareness
- Check to see if still subtlely ill
Hard day today. Had a slack message that I decided to check at the conversation bit (when the work meditation meeting ends), and it ended up being important. I almost decided to just end there (with 20 minutes), but I sat back down and got up with about 8 minutes left. So, 37 minutes.
Today is kind of how I expected yesterday to go.
Distractions really wanted to be paid attention to today. I did manage to get to a solid vividness of breath at various points. Body-scans and mirror-checks continue to be useful.
Nothing really notable to note. If trouble continues then I may want to set some stronger intentions or something.
Have errands to run today, so no experimental plans. Well, actually, cousin wanted to start doing things, so maybe I will.
Coding stuff with cousin.